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Elephant Memories uThe Push was a solid 45 star read roundedp to 5 after some thought as although I wouldn t say it was an all time favourite I had to give credit to the incredible writing and also the fact that not only did I dream about this book but it impacted me in so many areas and left me thinking and reflecting and remembering I feel like I have soo much to say about this read so I will try to keep it as brief as I can Two things before I start 1 This is a psychological drama with emphasis on the psychological I was on the edge of my seat with discomfort yay but this is not a novel for those looking for a thriller For me it was really incredibly readable literary fiction that I couldn t put down and thought about when I had to do so Leading me to 2 this is not comfortable this isn t even nature vs nurture it s nature meets nurture and fights for it s life It is raw and dark and cruel and would be triggering to many and likely not a read for all For me it was a huge success see below So briefly this is the story of Blythe s life with a focus on her as a Mom and a daughter We learn of her mother and her mother s mother We learn of her life now and her life when she met her husband and how they existed in their first years of life as a couple and as parents Every mother in Blythe s bloodline has fallen devastatingly short as a parent and Blythe is nervous that she will be the same despite the encouragement of a husband and mother in law that she loves When she has her daughter Violet she doesn t bond with her and Descent into Chaos uestionable things happen that make her wonder whether the issue is with her or whether it there is something wrong with her child This is Blythe s autobiography The first person narrative was perfection This is how to write in this POV I knew Blythe but I also knew the people around her and magically knew when they actually thought differently than Blythe as a character thought they did yesss Ashley Audrain Soo well written you re told through characters movements and body languageexpression glimpsing their perspective and personas Also by doing this we are constantly aware we may be in the hands of annreliable narrator Another thing I loved in her doing this was that by sing Iyouher instead of names this book allowed the reader to get confused about who the narrator was talking aboutto and also to nderstand that these feelings and thoughts apply to so many It showed the confusion and spiralling of Blythe with easeBlythe her mom and her Grandmother s stories were all interspersed in chapters throughout the story and sometimes I would stop and wonder whose story I was on wonder whose husband she was discussing whose Dad whose Mom and then perhaps a bit late to the game I realized hello could that literally be the point AmazingI was so devastated at all of the missed moments for help for so many of the characters But I was also so completely confused at who to feel for again the point is Blythe reliable as a narrator Violet is a child I had to remind myself of my children at that age and imagine well best you read for yourself Ah mazing Speaking of emotions although there were such heart stopping abusive moments the moments that truly broke me down into tears were the moments of kindness the neighbour omg I could barely read those through crying what a book that inserts you so firmly into someones darkness that when they see kindness you cry for
bravoI saw the acknowledgements that Ashley Audrain Is A Mom Audrain is a mom it confirmed what I had thought throughout a mom wrote this every nuance every feel or lack of that she described triggered memories of bonding that were with a mere sentence brought so forth in my mind that I was instantly emotional and further tying me The Icarus Girl up in a book that I am still trying tontangle myself fromIf you had a book club with people who could all handle the subject matter this would make for incredible discussion There were so many moments beyond the huge plot movements subtle nuances that so caught me and I wanted to saythem bravoi saw
what did you think of moment What did you think of the title could be one whole discussionThe only thing it lacked for me was that I felt it lost itself a teensy bit in the last 14 with a few thriller elements that took away from it in the overall for me but still only 12 a star of loss there All in all such a well written book I recommend that if you can handle the subject matter that you push yourself to read it now I thank Penguin Random House Canada and NetGalley for the advanced reader copy of this wonderfully written book so pleased it was written by a Canadian author 5 outstanding stars2021 Favourites ListThe hype is real Even better than I had hoped Gut wrenching Most emotional and amazing book I ve read in years A mother s heart breaks a million ways in her lifetime Blythe struggles to connect with her newborn daughter and worries that her own traumatic childhood has damaged her ability to properly bond and nurture as a parent She battles these thoughts on a daily basis and pushes herself through the endless stress filled days of parenting a young child Things seem to be easier once her son is bornEmotionally draining and compulsively readable This is one of the most intense and amazing books I ve read in years I was ite literally addicted to this bookto this mother s pain and her struggles I was rooting for Blythe My heart broke every time hers did which was a constant ache from start to finishThe writing I don t know how to adeuately describe the beauty of the writing The writing flowed directly into my heart and had me feeling as though I was experiencing the heartache and struggles right alongside Blythe My connection and investment in Blythe s situation was so strong due to the exceptional writing that I felt as though it was happening to me ite simply I was Blythe while I read this I have no personal experience with what Blythe went through but I feel like a changed person after reading this This moved me so deeply This is not a happy book It is brutally honest and raw It will rip your heart out It will make you feel the pain of a mother fighting her own thoughts and worriesI know it s very early in the year but I think this will be my favourite book of 2021 This will be extremely hard to top I sually move right on to the next book once I finish reading but the intensity of this one forced me to take a break to think and truly absorb the situation Major book hangover I feel bad for whatever book I pick p nextThank. A tense page turning psychological drama about the making and breaking of a family–and a woman whose experience of motherhood is nothing at all what she hoped for–and everything she fearedBlythe Connor is determined that she will be the warm comforting mother to her new baby Violet that she herself never hadBut in the thick of motherhood’s exhausting early days Blythe becomes convinced that som. .HEY WHAT DID YOU THINK OF
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You to NetGalley for the review copyThis is AVAILABLE NOW Just WOW 5 GLOWING stars indeed This is what I would categorize as a psychological family drama AND literary fictionyes it is written THAT well This is a debut novel by a fellow Canadian and local author This book is deserving of the 2021 book buzzThis is a sad and twisted tale of 3 dysfunctional generations of motherhood Every Mother loves their child right I think the less you know about this book the better It is just fantastic but very dark so don t expect a loving tale This will lead you on an emotional rollercoaster like no other At times you will be rooting for the mother crying with her and then wanting to shake her and throw her across the roomI d like to kindly thank NetGalley and Penguin Random House Canada for granting me access to this fantastic Advanced Reader Copy Ashley Audrain s debut is a hard to read multilayered complex and chilling family drama the worst nightmares viscerally and vibrantly given life a psychological thriller that ventures into horror territory It is a multi generational examination of the dysfunctional nature of many families where the role of mother is not all its cracked Marie Antoinette up to be breakingnder societal expectations of motherhood mother child relationships and raises the dark estions of nature versus nurture when it comes to children There are echoes of Lionel Shriver s We Need To Talk About Kevin in the story that nfolds that looks at the life of Blythe Connor her meeting Fox at college a relationship that develops into a marriage seemingly set for a dream future with the expectation that they will have children As we are to discover this dream is set to be shattered into a million tiny piecesFor starters Blythe has a traumatic childhood and as is made clear within the narrative we learn that Cecilia Blythe s mother and Etta her grandmother were problematic mothers Programming in Objective C unsurprisingly leaving Blythe with little confidence in her ability to be a good mother As she contemplates the future Blythe has good intentions when it comes her baby However when she gives birth to her daughter Violet she fails to connect with her is exhausted as nothing pans out as she imagines Fox takes little notice of her concerns when it comes to Violet who is antter daddy s girl but not like other children and harbouring less than warm feelings towards her mother Is Blythe paranoid too Beyond Band of Brothers unreliable and flawed to be believed Blythe feels completely differently when she gives birth to her son Sam now she has thenswerving feelings of love and connection all of her maternal instincts have kicked in and Violet appears to have accepted himAudrain writes a riveting and tense drama that documents the terrors of a family disintegrating in the most appalling ways possible I have to be honest though whilst this is a thought provoking read if I had any idea of what I was going to encounter in this novel I would not have chosen to read this and I do not think it is a book for everyone there are multiple trigger issues This is a nsettling and disturbing book of damaged characters mental health issues and the realities of families mothers and children that are far from society s chocolate box expectations Many thanks to Penguin Michael Joseph for an ARC Update Ashley Audrain will be joining s for a spoiler free A in the Behind the Pages Group More details to come You can find the thread herehttpswwwgoodreadscomtopicshowHot Emotional Diggity Dang If you haven t read this one it is one you don t want to miss Put on your lounge pants and lock yourself "In A Room Because You Won T "a room because you won t to put it down once you start it It s one you will want to talk about It is a book I am so excited to share with everyone I want to stand in a book store and hand it to everyone who store and hand it to everyone who in and tell them they have to read it It book store and hand it to everyone who comes in and tell them they have to read it It been a long time since a story has made me feel like this one did that feeling of being spent emotionally yet completely satisfied It s the best way to feel after reading a book We are expected or think we are good mothers have the perfect children and the ideal relationship with them right Well Ashley Audrain boldly challenges that expectation here and shows The Year of Living Biblically us a compelling complex story that explores the bonds of mother and daughters and motherhood s darkncomfortable emotional realities The things we hide burying our heads and don t push by talking about it She weaves a well layered emotionally intelligent story with suspense elements to create an absorbing psychological drama that is not to be mistaken for a psychological thriller I went in thinking this was going to be a dark twisted entertaining psychological thriller and I started to worry it would go in the direction of those bad mother and psychology tropes and that the over thinker in me would come raging out Thanks to my reading twin Jen who picked p on some things I didn t I started thinking differently about this one Thank you Jen I had nothing to worry about It would be easy for this story to fall into those harmful tropes however Ashley Audrain pushes for better here The story is told almost entirely in second person narrative from Blythe to her husband Fox Ashley Audrain creates one of the best opening scenes I have read to set p suspense a sense of foreboding and an ominous feel to the story I wished from the start I would have checked that thriller mind of mine and paid attention to Blythe s tone to the story and picked p of her feeling of self doubt Blythe is a relatable character and Audrain does a good job of putting s in her shoes allowing For the Love of All Thats Holy, Dont Buy a Boat When Venus is in Retrograde us to feel with her The title is brillant and worth thinking about and we spend some time talking about it and how it relates to the story There is so much to this story to talk about and so much I want to say but I will leave it at this I recommend this one to readers who love a well developed psychological drama with depth layers This was a Traveling Sister read and one we all highly recommend I received a copy from the publisher through NGTraveling Sister reviews can be found on our bloghttpstravelingsistersbookreviewscom SAFE TO READ NO SPOILERS Audiobookread by MarinIreland8 hours and 38 minutesDear Readers A New Buzz 2021 psychological non traditional mysterious thriller arrives I msually willing to take the plunge and read a few buzzers each year The risk is Scary Stories 3 usually worth it allowing me to at least engage in the yay or nay discussions Dear Fox You might want to read what I have say From Blythe Conne. Ething is wrong with her daughter–she doesn’t behave like most children doOr is it all in Blythe’s head Her husband Fox says she’s imagining things The Fox dismisses her fears the Blythe begins toestion her own sanity and the we begin to The Penguin Atlas of Endangered Species uestion what Blythe is tellings about her life as wellThen their son Sam is born–and with him Blythe has the blissful connection she’d always imagine. ,
R wifemother of your childrenex wife Dear Curious psychological thriller ReadersDo you try to pick the golden gems from the sandy stones Push is a mixture of both golden gems sandy stones Our feelings and thoughts are tested in the same way one might feel when riding a Tilt A Whirl at the amusement part Note The last time I was on a Tilt A Whirl I was in grade schoolso what do I knowha Readers will talk about Push with controversial thoughtsFor me Push was both a yay and nay experienceI m sure this has been said in other reviewsThis contemporary novel is dark disturbingcompelling realistically frighteningIt s mostly a hooker got ya now Push might not teach readers everything they need to know about family marriage parenthood children motherhood generations of mothers andor love for one s children butit will push pull and stretch our thoughts associated with nature versus nurture I had already heard a lot of praise for this book before I started it Ashley Audrain is a local author this is her debut novel and although it s not released The Bartender until next month the movie deals are already being made I was thrilled when I saw it available on NetGalley and jumped at a chance for a copy Blythe and her husband are expecting He s thrilled and so is she but she s nervous too because the women in her family have a pattern of not adapting well to motherhood We see flashbacks to Blythe s childhood and the abuse she suffered from her mother We also get glimpses into her mother s own childhood But Blythe is confident she ll be a great mom Until her daughter Violet is born and she struggles to bond with her Blythe finds her daughter to be a nuisance and as she gets older is convinced there s something fundamentally wrong with Violet that makes hernlovable This story goes to some dark places The author really doesn t pull punches and knows her readers will feel Tono Bungay uncomfortable There were a couple of times that I got too flustered and put the book down mid sentence because I needed space from it I once watched a documentary about a man in prison because he murdered someone during a robbery The show explained all the abuse he d suffered as a kid that made him into someone who didn tnderstand love or empathy His victim s family forgave him and said that they thought his mother was the one who should be punished instead I Magical Sweet Mermaid understood that but I also wondered what that mothers childhood had been like Probably she was abused too and how far back does the cycle go This book explores that and at times I hated Blythe then at other times I had a lot of sympathy for her I can see why this book is building so much attention A woman is supposed to WANT to be a mother She will fall IN LOVE at first sight despite the searing pain of childbirth and the recovery nothing held back here She will KNOW instinctively what do do and feel fulfilled while doing so BUT what IF you weren t nurtured as a childWhat will happen if THAT child growsp to be a mother herself and motherhood for her turns out to be nothing at all what she hoped for and everything she feared What if she doesn t bond with her child in the same way that her own mother did not bond with herBe prepared to dive deeply into the psyche of Blythe She is THAT child And this deep dive is raw and painfulBoth her experience AS a daughter and her experience AS a motherAnd then there is her daughter VIOLET A difficult baby A child with a mean streakA child she may love but doesn t necessarily like She watches the other women she comes across Perplexed at the mother infant bondsUntil she gives birth to SamAnd it all makes senseThis book was reminiscent of Zoje Stage s Baby Teeth for me BUT ONLY in the sense that the estion is raised about if the mother s behavior is at all responsible for her daughter s so don t let this one comment dissuade you Nature vs NutureThis book will probably
make a lot of mothers ncomfortable They may balk at the idea thata lot of mothers Elementary Treatise in Herbology uncomfortable They may balk at the idea that mother can FEEL this way toward any of her children beyond the Postpartum Depression stage that many women experienceThey can Some do I am not a mother But I am a daughterAND I know a woman like Blythe This book tied me in knots I started out thinking one way then another back to the first and then the end and by then my head was spinning What a twisty story A story about mothering scars from the past and how the past can affect out present Can one trust their own judgement when others don t agree Can one mother when they haven t been mothered What to believe ones own self or is one seeing things that aren t there What a book kudos to this author for this intriguing psychological telling My review hopefully conveys the many different positions my confused thoughts as I was reading Plus that ending left me reelingARC from Edelweiss Holy Shooty Balls This was one gripping emotionally raw and brilliantly written novelTHE PUSH by ASHLEY AUDRAIN is an emotional chilling dark andtterly immersive psychological drama that was an all consuming page turner for me Right from the very first chapter I knew that this was going to be my kind of book and that I was going to absolutely love it This book totally got nder my skin it disturbed and nsettled me On one hand I was totally gutted with the hard to read content and on the other I was elated and excited with how good the story was reading this in almost one sitting It was absolutely nputdownableASHLEY AUDRAIN delivers a complex tense multi layered compelling fast paced and enthralling multi generational story here that was so incredibly well written I was thoroughly impressed and fascinated with the way that this story was written and how intuitive the author was IN HOW WELL SHE WROTE THESE DAMAGED CHARACTERS IN how well she wrote these damaged characters in a terrifyingly realistic way At times the darkness was so intense but was absolutely riveting at the same time I loved how the author had me doubting what was happening right along with Blythe and how she was perceiving things Was it real or was it her imagination I didn t even want to guess what was going on I just wanted to readThe ending of this book definitely goes down at being one of the best ones that I have ever readWarning Multiple Trigger IssuesThank you so much to NetGalley Ashley Audrain and Penguin Random House Canada for the opportunity to read an advanced copy of this fabulous bookThis is a debut novel by a fellow Canadian that will plant you snap dab in the middle of an emotional rollercoaster So deserving of all the praise and buzz that it is gettin. D with her child Even Violet seems to love her little brother But when life as they know it is changed in an instant the devastating fall out forces Blythe to face the truth The Push is a tour de force you will read in a sitting an tterly immersive novel that will challenge everything you think you know about motherhood about what we owe our children and what it feels like when women are not believe.